Am I Wrong?

So my birth control is the Nuvaring and you put it in three weeks take it out a week for your period and again for three weeks and so on....well occasionally due to not being able to get it sometimes because our clinic is closed I miss a day or two ...

My bf says he's not ready for kid but if I ever got pregnant he'd stick by me.. but the thing is I'm ready for a kid.

I've been so conflicted that I try to have sex in those off days just to try and get "accidentally" pregnant but he pulls out and then I realize what I'm doing and feel bad like I'm tricking him or something I'm just really conflicted