Super Debbie downer post. Just had to vent some thoughts boiling over

I know it's supposed to be uplifting when glow is like it's so wonderful you feel well and aren't experiencing discomfort but it's not. It's terrifying that after 6 weeks I feel nothing and after a mc at 9 weeks last pregnancy I can't help but think it's because the baby is lost. Just like a switch there is no breast tenderness, no bloating, constipation. No aches and pains in my lower abdomen. Just nothing. I just know when I go in to my ultrasound it will be just like last time. No heartbeat. Only this time instead of one dead baby there will be 2.