Miscarriage? Move on ?

I'm 20 years old & I've been with my Boyfriend 5 years come this January. Recently We've Moved from Alabama to Florida BC of the military. I had been seriously sick the time we was moving so I decided to go home until I got back to my normal self at the time I was on my period as I thought but I was receiving these huge pieces of blood clot looking things so I called my obgyn and went to him come to find out long story short I had a miscarriage at 5 to 7 weeks and I didn't even know I was pregnant . I can't seem to wrap my head around the whole pregnant thing , I'm furious with myself BC at the time of finding out I wasn't emotional or upset I was numb now as the days go by I can't even look at my boyfriend without crying I'm miserable . and I can't move on do you move on or what