I sometimes hate being pregnant.
Okay I don't hate it but it surely had gotten the best of me. Especially yesterday (4th of July)
Brief background: I've always thought I wasn't pretty or had a great body. All of that. Had issues in the past from bullies, etc.
Met my boyfriend, and he made me feel good about myself. almost two years together. Well Fourth of July we went along with our friends so they could have some fun to his grandparents 4th of July party. Me and my friend are pregnant so we let our guys drink of they wanted. Well both of them don't drink or haven't drank in a couple of years.
Even though deep down I know he wouldn't cheat on me. What he said made me upset, he was drunk but no excuse. Him and his friend, both are drunk, says about this one girl that he couldn't help but look at her boobs. I mean yes they're right there and yes she just had a baby and looks good
But that's besides the point. I just got quiet and held back my tears and played it off like oh well I still get to have you by the end of the day.
I wanted to smack the shit outta him to be honest like hard cause it hurt. Him knowing about my past issues and still here today cause let's face it I don't feel cute or sexy right now. 34 weeks pregnant and I feel miserable. I've never been more insecure ever in my life. I'll let him know in the morning when he sobers up how everything was and how I truly feel.
As of right now as I'm typing he's laying down next to me with possible alcohol poisoning. And I still wanna slap the shit outta him. Even when he's in pain already.
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