Feeling really blessed.

I can not say how blessed I am. Or how blessed I feel. I remember losing my first pregnancy to a miscarry in January of this year. It hurt so bad I lost alot of faith in God. But I regained it as days went by relizing it was in his plan for me. Sure enough my boyfriends brother passes away a few days later and I knew why I wouldn't of been able to handle both those at once. But March of this year came around after my first period in febuary I relized okay well be blessed when we are blessed as March rolled around 9 days before my period I tested and got a strong positive. I couldn't belive my eyes. I had one loss,a family loss and now the hugest blessing I could of ever asked for. Here I am at 21 weeks. I got dizzy and feel in the shower smacking my head right off the wall and landing right on my tummy. I was terrified I may have broke my water or hurt my baby. So me and my boyfriend head out with tears in our eyes for the dreaded hour drive where I prayed and prayed. For my little beautiful princess to be okay. I cried so much on the way up there thinking there is no way she will be okay. But I had hope. I just kept saying I'm so sorry to my boyfriend I didn't mean to fall. And he just kept saying it's not your fault. It was an accident. I knew he was right but I told him I can't lose her too I would never forgive my self so for a good 40 minutes of that trip I looked out the window praying, wishing, hoping, asking him to please let my little angle to be okay, to please let her be okay. I couldn't stop crying at the thought of losing her. But a sense of calm came over me when we arrived and a part of me knew we would be okay. I felt the tiniest kick on my hand and I took it as a sign for her telling me mom I'm okay. But you always have that doubt. Sure enough she was perfectly fine, heart beat of 120, my cervix was closed and long, exactly how it should be, I was feeling crappy and sore but I figure I had a huge fall. I got 2 bags of iv fluid, blood work, and monitored for hours, plus got a bunch of test including 2 urine test and nothing was wrong at all, it was a mircle I can't thank god enough for blessing me yesterday I can't. If this isn't proof god is with us 24/7 idk what is. Thank you Lord, and thank you forever blessing me with my wonderful mircle of a baby girl. Oh I know it seems so silly but I honestly can't belive how lucky I am. I pray for everyone of you tonight including my self to deliver your babies safe into this world. Amen ❤🌸 have faith when you have nothing else because god will always be there when you need him most. 🌸❤💑👪