Emotional TWW plz read

I'm having a really hard time trying to occupy my mind during this TWW, all I can think about tonight is what it feels like to get that positive test and be pregnant with a beautiful healthy baby. The more I think about it the more doubt my mind gives me that I'll never have that experience. But I'm young (22) and my and SO have only been trying for two months (this is the first month we've actually REALLY tried. I'm just freaking out on the inside and I'm getting emotional and trying not to cry. I can't help but keep looking at everyone's BFP they've gotten and ultrasound pictures. I could go on and on but I don't want to make this long and bore you. Just need someone to talk to I feel hopeless