Cried at the hospital

At work I got head budded by one of the kids right in the stomach, she's a big girl weights 90 pounds and completely doesn't know her strength so I called the doc because before that I didn't feel the baby move all morning as I usually would and also had brown spotting since loosing my mucus plug on Friday. He told me to go to L&D and get a sono and stress test. When my boyfriend got to the hospital and I saw him I completely started to ball cry because I realized this is my 2nd time in the hospital in a week or so and no baby. I'm so drained and over being pregnant. I know he will come when he's ready but seeing posts of woman getting inducted and scheduled c sections and water breaking yadada I'm like wtf why cant it be my time! I'm emotional and exhausted and 17 more days seems like an eternity!