Am I wrong or the only one?

Am I the only one who doesn't like giving blowjobs lik sit doesn't turn me on. I'd love to pleasure my man though like handjobs. But I feel like I'm wrong from not liking. I don't like it because of the bad experiences I had. Like one guy tasted like how piss smells and I swallowed once and it tasted awful plus most of the dudes forced my head down and I didn't like that.