Texts at 3am? (Rant)

Husbands phone keeps getting texts, its 10 till 3am and I'm awake because lo is kicking the crap out of me. I'm on here and his phone keeps going off, I don't want to be that wife who checks her husbands phone but now my mind is racing thinking about who tf is messaging him at this hour.

I admit I have some insecurity problems and a jealous heart, not my best qualities but I'm not one to go off the handle at things. Like I see his IG full of hot Asian chicks and I see him gawk at women on the street but I bite my tongue because let's be honest I too look at good lookin men and it is only natural to glance. A stare down is something different. (To me)

I'm just kinda losing my mind right now and feel so ridiculous that I'm so worried about these texts at 3am. I mean we're married now and although we've had some difficulties in the past that are obviously still affecting me I want to have complete trust in him. again I'm insecure right now, maybe now more than ever and pretty damn hormonal.