Have you ever had a abortion?

I had a abortion at 19 . I was told if I wasn't to have a abortion he would bet the baby out of me . We fought all the time . I tried to leave him may times but I loved him so much I couldn't . But thank God I finally did . At night I cry because I miss my baby so much and wish I won't have a abortion. I be praying that one day God would bless me with another baby . But so far , he haven't . I think he mad at me and punishing me. But I know my baby is in a better place. Even doe I had my abortion my baby is in heaven . When I cry at night , I tell my baby that I'm sorry and I don't want it to happen but everything happens for a reason .