My husband aid this and broke my freaking heart. I don't know where to go from here

Let me give a little back ground. I had a baby 3 months ago. She is our third. We have an 8 and 4 year old too.

My husband and I haven't had sex since January he doesn't like having sex while I'm pregnant. It's always like that and that's ok, I've accepted it. Then I had a rough pregnancy, then I hag a rough delivery with a third degree tear and a large hematoma so I had several dr appointment the few weeks following giving birth. Well we got the ok for sex at 7 weeks and we still haven't. The other night he came in after having a few drinks and said

Him: do you tell people we don't have sex?

Me: no I don't talk about that, I'm not proud of it! I don't even know why our what happened?

Him: it's different this time, I just don't want to fuck the mother of me kids. You always have a baby hanging off your tit!

I started to cry and he says

Him: here we go, this is why I never want to talk to you. I know you'd react like this?

Me: how am I supposed to react? My husband just told me he doesn't want me

Him; you always make it about you, I was just telling you how I feel and it's something I'm upset about.

The argument got worse. W talked about divorce etc. The next day he was nice said he's not going anywhere and wants to terry to make this work

3 weeks ago we were a happy fun loving couple

HE JUST BROKE MY HEART

I can't even think straight, please I need advice. I am going to look into counseling but what would you do in the mean time?