I'm very emotional tonight. In addition to stress from TTC and buying a house, I come across a pic of a baby on fb. Just not any baby but my ex husbands baby. The same man I was with for 12 years who wanted kids then didn't then said (basically) I wasn't good enough to have kids with bc I'm bipolar. After we split, he got together with an ex of his from high school who had 2 boys from a previous relationship and then she got preggo late last year with their daughter who he's now gushing over (we're no longer fb friends but I'm still close with some of his family who shared his post). Don't get me wrong I'm so happy with my fiance and couldn't be more happy to have someone that accepts me as I am not how they want me to be. I don't know if its the fact that it brings back the feeling of constantly being told I'm not good enough to have kids with and also I got a
bfn today as well. Ugh, trying to get my mind off of it and remind myself of all the blessings I have in my life and hopefully getting blessed with a little bean to add to our family would be wonderful when and if it happens (fiance has an 8 yo daughter and 3 furbabies 😄). Sorry to ramble just think I needed to get this out.
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