I HATE the father of my child

I hate the father of my child people like him should be shot or castrated. He is a nobody and a loser. I have stupidly wasted 2 years trying to vie for his affection and now I'm pregnant and he is STILL treating me like a joke. He always has. He is a bully and a fake ass person. His friends and his family bully and make fun of me behind my back and to my face act like I'm a joke. His best friends wife is an evil witch who has tried number out time to set him up with other girls for her own entertainment I guess I feel sorry for anyone whose life is that pathetic and boring but I guess that's her! I'm 12 w 5 days and today went to abortion clinic to set my first appt and go again on Saturday if I go through with the procedure. He has called me for 5 days straight because I quit talking to him after he got drunk Satuday night and made a fool out of me in front of everyone and he lied and said he hadn't told anyone about the pregnancy when in fact all the shitty friends knew because it came out that night whe. They were all drunk and ended up gaining up on me his friends wife did.  I don't know what I'm going to do about this pregnancy I'm 27 and never been pregnant before. He on the other hand has a 9 yr old and a 5 yr old he barely sees and does nothing but play mind games to fuck with their mom and give her hell. He enjoys being the Bain of a woman's existence he is scum. I had to get that out. I don't know what I'm going to do but I pray to god he helps me through it.