Need to rant can't stop crying lol.

Kirsty
So my partner always goes out and forgets there way home. So most days I just sit around waiting for them to come home once they've seen there friends and family. I don't want to be those pushy girlfriends that's like "no you can't go out" but am never invited and I just sit at home waiting for them to come sometimes it's not until really late and I've waited up all night.
So today, they went out to see family before this one of there family members asked if they could borrow money I was put on the spot and said yes, so fast forward its about 10.30pm and I phoned to say are you coming home? They said yes and oh btws am borrowing so and so money (another family member) earlier on this day I said how I didn't want to borrow anyone money because it's not often we have money to buy us nice things. ( we just got a house we are decorating). So I flipped out and was like wtf? I've already borrowed your family money already and when did you start making decisions about money with consulting me but they ignored me and borrowed the family member money. 
It's now 01.52am and they still aren't home? I messaged them saying how I hate always waiting around and you never come home and am always left in myself but when I want to go out it's a different scenario. I've been up cryin all night a hate this. 
Am a being a horrible girlfriend???