Not ready!!!

In my last doctor's appointment, I had to get a pap & that s*** was so uncomfortable & it hurt so bad Just when they stuck this cotton swab looking thing in there. I can't even imagine what the pain is gonna be like from having my baby. I even didn't wanna get an epidural from reading up on all the risks that come with it but that pain just sounds soo excruciating. I'm literally Shitting bricks about it. It's almost time & I'm just getting more nervous about it the closer I get.