Can't Stop Crying

I'm writing this in tears right now because I'm lost and I need to vent. I moved 14 hours away from home after I graduated to be closer to a man who I was in lover with. We made these plans and everything was going well until I found out he was having sex with other women. He's a pro athlete. But we met before he got drafted. He was so sweet and nice to me and was unlike any guy I dated. We were never in a committed relationship but I was under the impression that we were monogamous because of our relationship. It was great! We had our ups and downs but always made it through them. When I found out about the other girls it was too late to change my moving plans. I moved and I thought it would make our relationship better. I was wrong. I've been here a month and I just want to go back home. He's changed so much. I did the no contact rule for two weeks and gave in and that made everything so much worse! He said he didn't want to be with me anymore because I ignored him. It killed me ignoring him but I only wanted him to realize what he had. Now he talks to me any kind of way and I love him but I can only think that if our child had survived (I miscarried) I would never want my daughter to be in a relationship with someone like her dad. Maybe the old him but the new him, no. I feel so stupid but I guess love makes you do crazy things. I just needed to talk to someone because my family and friends would only judge.