I love my twins to death, there's definitely no doubt about that and I hate to write this statement too. Who wouldn't love their kids?

I'm breaking down. It's tiring. It's overwhelming. I'm a first time mom. I am unable to eat on time. My body is still in pain. I need good food. I need to recover. I can't walk for long. I'm not losing weight coz my ankles and knees still hurt from any activity. I just want myself and everything back to normal. I feel so lost...