I know I'll have next month to conceive but AF showed today and my heart hurts so bad. My SO and I have been trying to conceive for three months with no success. What makes it even more difficult is that he's out of town most of the time due to his job. I miss him immensely and there is nothing like having you're partner comfort you in times like this. I'm frustrated with myself because I feel like just throwing in the towel. I have a 21 month old daughter from a previous relationship, and I want more than anything to share this experience with someone I truly love. My pregnancy was not an easy one but I am willing to go through all of that again for my love. It just doesn't seem to be happening in our favor this time around. This will be my SO's first biological child so you know this important to me. I just hate getting disappointed. It was never this hard. (I was pregnant after my daughter twice resulting in miscarriage.) Why is that when you want something so bad it doesn't happen? I know my SO will love me no matter what but I can tell he really wants a child of his own. I'm just hurt because as of right now I won't be able to give that to him.