Long post. Be kind please.

Derquicia
Long rant. Be ready. 
So. My husband and I have been having issues for the last 5-6 months of our marriage. I thought it was just another phase of growing pains at first. We've only been married for like a year. We've been together ever since I graduated high school (2007). Anyway, I found out at the end of July he had been "dating" someone he met from work. Like staying out with her and getting rooms with her. He took her to MY favorite restaurant. He gave me his leftovers, while I was thinking maybe he had lunch with his bosses and just brought it home. I know that isn't as important but you guys get the picture. Anyway, I thought it was over and I forgave him. Well move forward to last weekend. I was supposed to go to a concert with my best friend but we weren't able to go, and my husband made plans to go out with his friends. No big deal. I've never cared about him going out. But I did ask him to cancel his plans so we could spend time together and he was very adamant about going out that night. So of course I go into suspicion mode. And later on in the week the girl he cheated with messaged me on Facebook to tell me everything. Like. I'm just so tired of the drama. I tried again to move on for the sake of our marriage but I'm still very much angry and hurt behind this. When I found out he was still seeing her, I didn't even get mad. I was just like ok whatever. And I finished working. Why can't I just let go of this man who doesn't care about me?😭😭😭