I kinda let him go in 😢 I couldn't hold it back anymore. I wanted him just as much as he wanted me. I saw his eyes rolling back in complete bliss as he went in. He looked like he was having a spiritual experience. I stopped him after a little bit, but I had been holding back having sex without a condom til marriage, so I'm like internally conflicted and I almost cried after. I love him so much though and I can see and want a future with him. It was both extremely amazing and terrifying.