Great sex talk is depressing:(

thats great and all but hearing about wveryone having great sex makes me feel depressed.. i am marrid to a man that has been addicted to porn and would not be interested in having sex.. it took us forever to concieve because he never seemed to be in the mood inwas the one that would look for him touch him.. start kissing him etc and him on rare occasions.. until i discovered his addiciton.. i honestly cant say what an orgasm feels like.. this is a problem i don't want for the rest of my life.... idk what to do..