Life Just wanna kill myself at this point!

Me an my husband had a fight I'm pregnant an he was hitting me being trying for two years now I'm bleeding an back hurting really bad we been under stress but I seen a message in his mom phone where she was talking to a girl he had. Dealings with in the pass an it upset me like u still talking to these women an my husband come around here all the time like how should that make me feel an wonder why I can't trust him an The message said "Hey momma can you tell tremaine to call me"! Like this ur ex texting this to ur moma an I shouldn't get mad??????But honestly I been hurt way to many times about situation like these an I don't wanna go down that road again it hurts so bad like I been here this whole time an or anniversary coming we have to move outta our house back to an apt an now he don't wanna help me move an he let my car get took an all he can say is fuck this fuck that you don't trust me.