Feel like I wanna cheat

Boyfriend of 6 years and I got Married soon as I found out we were expecting. I feel like I was forced into because both our parents was saying we should want to fo things the right way and now that my sons here and I'm in mommy mode I feel like naw I don't wanna be with his ass. He come home tired while his three month old just want his attention. It really isn't about the fact that I have to play with myself just to get off now days, the fact that he forgot my birthday or that he be gone And never calls home. I feel like I'm getting back to myself, compliments here and there (bit that I care about that) but I wanna find someone that's into me again. Flirts with me. Cares for me. Am I wrong?! I be soo horny and when we do have that quiet alone time he normally sleep or in his man cave watching porn or perusing his rap. I don't know how much more I can take cuz I really feel like where is the love?! 😟😢😢😢😢