November is my due date month for my angel

My due date is the day before thanksgiving. I've done pretty good since losing her in July. This is going to be a hard month... I don't know if maybe I haven't grieved very much yet, or what but I have done very good. Maybe one day it will hit me and I will be a mess but it hasn't happened yet. We have been ttc since my first pp cycle in August and had a chemical in September. I think it would make this month a little easier and kind of amazing if we got our BFP. Im on AF right now so I would be testing right around my angels due date. Please send me enormous amounts of baby dust!!!!