I badly want a baby 😢

After losing my baby last month, I'm so badly depressed and I want a baby. I'm married 1 and a half years but when we started ttc I was not this much mad about a baby. Only after losing my baby in last month's surgery, i really really want to have a baby and want to be a mumma soon. My gynac has told me to wait 3 months to start ttc again and it's like forever! Even after that I dunno what's gonna happen. If I'm gonna have an ectopic again or will I ever have a succesful pregnancy. I'm too terrified about this and getting too depressed every single day. It's hurting me aloootttt !

Everytime I see anyone pregnant or carrying a small baby or I hear any pregnancy news from my family it hurts! I frankly admit I'm jealous. Everytime I'm alone I breakdown and cry for hours and still don't feel better. I want a baby soon. I need prayers ladies 😢😢😢😢😢