Wish I had my Sex Drive Back

I hate denying my husband sex. He doesn't ask a lot but when he does I almost always just ignore him until he stops touching me or just start crying. I WANT to but... I don't want to, ya know? It hurts and it hurts really bad for the rest of the night when I pee, because the lube we bought burns my already super sensative areas, so it's just a disaster.

Tonight I denied him but tried my hand. It was just a disaster and I want to cry. How do you guys keep your husbands sexually satisfied?