I feel like a horrible person.

I'm almost nine weeks pregnant and I'm over it. I wake up sick, I go to bed sick, my body is so bloated and I'm an emotional mess. I just want to feel like myself again. I know there are a lot of women that would give anything to experience these symptoms so I feel terrible for not embracing it but it's just hard. I love this baby and want it more than anything and can't wait for him, her or them to get here but dang if it isn't hard. I hate pregnancy!! It was never this hard with my first and this just freaking sucks.