how to deal with tragedy and pregnancy?

Kelsey
On Sunday night I got a call that my
Mom was in the hospital and unresponsive. I rushed there as fast as I could. The moment I saw her I didn't think things were going to end up good. She had severe pneumonia, septic shock throughout her whole body and a large mass in her throat. Her blood pressure was extremely low and she couldn't breath on her own. She hadn't been taking care of herself and refused to get any sort of help no matter what anyone said. I stayed with her almost the whole night but I'm currently 37 weeks pregnant so my SO made me come home to sleep. I slept for an hr and a half and came back. I started to feel a little hopeful, she was a little responsive. Opening her eyes and trying to fight off the tubes and needles they were . putting in her. Her numbers looked much better and she was even breathing 60% on her own. I had to leave for a dr appointment and ultrasound but I cam right back and everything took a turn for the worse. They couldn't keep her blood pressure up, she had a high fever and wasn't passing urine. When me and my brother stepped out in the hall to make a phone call a dr came out and said he wanted to update us. I thought we were updated and he looked serious so I knew something was wrong. He took us in a tiny room and asked how hard he wants us to try to keep her alive. She was only 80lbs and very weak and they said likelihood of saving her at this point is small. We called the whole family to rush back in for her last few minutes of life and let her pass peacefully. I just can't believe I'm going to have to become a mom but my moms not going to be here with me. Everyone keeps telling me to stay calm and not stress for the baby, but how do you do that in a situation like this? I just wanna scream and break down but I have to force myself to keep it together and make sure I'm eating and sleeping enough for my baby. Anyone have any words of advise that went through something similar?