No signs of luck

Sierra • I’m a single mom going through a divorce from my abusive ex. I have two boys.
We've been ttc for 6 months and so far all I've had was a dream I got a BFP but when the time comes for AF I get let down. I haven't been taking any tests and have been lacking on here because I just want to say screw it. My doctors won't talk about me having another baby because I went through depression in the beginning of this year even though I'm better now the only problem I've had is uti's this year.