Seriously freaking out

Autumn
Baby girl will be here soon, my doctor is pushing me towards a C-Section on the 19, but I want a vaginal. Regardless the baby will be here soon and I still have soo much to get!! My daughters birthday will be after Christmas (the 26th) and I still have to get a ton of crap (Christmas related and baby related) and I'm seriously freaking out. This is where I wish I was abled to drink my anxiety meds because I'm seriously freaking out about this. For my first two pregnancies I started getting things SO early and idk why I waited 3 months before to start getting things like damn 
😩😩 like why me??