Am I being selfish? FTM, help!

I am scheduled to be induced on November 30, I will be 41 weeks pregnant.

I am having some conflicted emotions regarding this. On one hand, I am so ready to meet my son, hold him stroke his cheeks, smell his perfect new baby smell... on the other I really wanted to experience labor and delivery in the most natural sense, and was looking forward to laboring at home with my husband as long as possible.

I am seeing my doctor in the morning and I can't sleep, tossing and turning trying to decide if I should cancel my induction or not. Help! Has anyone else decided to wait? Am I putting my son at risk?