Depressed. Please Help!!!

Okay so my husband and have have been married a little over a year we were TTC since April of 2015 and not even the slightest positive since. Well it seems like the more we are getting into our marriage and finding out June of 2015 that I had endometriosis and then since then finding out we have many other fertility issues, it seems like our relationship and connection has all been going down hill along with my health and self-confidence. Occasionally I get where I just feel ugly and like he is completely unattracted to me ( not from him, in my own mind). Well normally he is the one to tell me shut up you are beautiful and I don't want anyone but you. Well over the last two days it has gotten worse, alot worse. I took sexy pictures for him because he was in bed with tooth pains and couldn't eat much. Well normally he would say wow your beautiful well he didn't realize respond til I asked him he just says I love them. Then today we are laying in bed watching TV and I take my phone out to take a picture cause I thought the way he was holding me was cute and sweet well I look at the photo all I see is a giant pimple on my forehead and I say geez I wish you woulda told me that was there or at least that bad. He said "how could you not see it, it is the main focus of the picture it's bad when your pimple takes up more of the picture than us. Haha haha" I get upset and just continue watching TV.

I do not understand how can I feel beautiful, for myself and for him, feel comfortable in my own body, but not be upset about giving him child. I feel like he isn't even attracted to me anymore. He wants kids but he never wants to have sex anymore. We used to be like animals 3-5 times a day. Now it is maybe twice a month.

Every single day I get pissed off at myself for not being able to give him child. I know he has to be mad at me too. I know it isn't something I could have changed before it happened. I just know he is mad about it too.

I just don't understand why he married me. We both wanted a family and now we can't have it.

I hate myself and wanna know how to make this feeling better, I know it'll never go away I just want it to ease off.

Please help!!!!!!! I am going CRAZY!!!!!