hmmmm 😕😕😕

Me and my boyfriend have only recently became official. We started off as fwb almost 2 years ago, only I dissapeared for 9 months to have a baby (didn't tell him until due date) but to my surprise he took it amazing. And was there every step from then. We didn't however jump into a relationship for the sake of a baby. BUT, we did start the whole fwb again. It lasted a few weeks but became a little complicated so we stopped talking for about 2 months and he didn't see his daughter. There has been some complications between us regarding are families since day one but we are battling the odds. So since talking again after 2 months apart, we started sleeping together again, only this time it didn't get complicated, it resulted in him telling me he loves me and wants more from this. Part of me feels it's just to hold on to me, as he wanted to be single but seen I was at one point almost moving on with someone and didn't like it. We are still finding are feet with each other, learning about each other and both sometimes get insecure. Recently he asked me to have another Baby with him. I thought this sounded so sweet and proved his feelings for me, until, he told me it was so he could leave work, and be put down as a full time dad. Get benefits for the baby and work 16 hours. Like a mother does. As he's found his work too stressful and hard. He wants a few years off. Then he said "please, I have no one else I can ask and I really want a baby" so in other words, this isn't personal that he wants ME to have a baby with him but just someone who's willing to have one for him and hand it over. 🙁🙁🙁🙁