He mad at me for hating myself

So my whole life I have been bully and pick on by everyone in my life telling me I'm ugly and worthless. And over the year I lost 50lbs and made health my life and career. However with school and relationship and family stress I gain weight. To me its a been deal cause feelings and thought come and I kinda go in depression I don't tell anyone but sometimes I just am find with insecure. I told my boyfriend that I wanted to sleep early so I could wake up and work out like I use to ( I used to make health my life before him) and not eat out like I was before. And my alarm says wake up fat ass! As motivational wake up call cause I really can't look at my self without me wanted to throw up. And I told him how I felt and he was mad how I talk to myself like athat and now is ignoring me. I just feel like I keep messing up and idk I have nothing . why can't he support me???