do you ever feel like you ruined your life?

I'm 22 & a ftm I was told I'd have a hard time getting pregnant when I was with my ex. I was in a new relationship with a great guy, I just don't feel it. Anyway we'd been together for a couple months and got pregnant this past August. Still together I'm just not overly excited about it. Idk. I'm exited to meet our daughter but it was such a new relationship that I'm unsure of. Maybe it's because my ex was abusive. And I was terrified to have kids with the wrong person. But I'm uneasy about the whole thing. And he's a great guy and deserves someone crazy about him. Idk. I'm just so unsure of my own feelings. I feel like I'm missing out on so much. Help me ladies. Is this just pregnancy blues or what? Ugh. Thanks in advance ❤️