Celibacy and feeling like the outsider.

Hey ladies! So I'm celibate. Been this way for a couple of months now. Seems like every encounter I've had with a guy, we started off as friends and everything was real cool. Then the topic of sex comes up... The last guy I was with, I told him it's not a good idea because I always end up not talking to the guy in the end and he would say, "Well it's different, blah blah blah" Welllll it happened (around the summer time) and it seemed like that was all he wanted me for. Long story short, I pretty much ended it and stopped communicating with him completely (he was a douche anyways). He still glances at my snapchats and whatnot but I'm so over men. I'm tired of feeling used and not worth anything. I am trying to keep a closer relationship with God (I was celibate before I met the douche too), and before then, everything was amazing. I was just sidetracked into the lust and lies and trickery that men usually plan out. I mean, being celibate now is great. But when most of my friends are dating, in love, pregnant, have kids already or just have good luck meeting good guys, I'm just sitting there like 😶🤔I'm thinking maybe God is saying "Hey, you're not ready for a relationship at the moment" and I'm okay with that. It gets lonely sometimes though. I'm in my junior year in college by the way and I don't think I want to live in this city forever so I guess He's got a point Lol. Seems like my best friends don't understand when I mention it to them either. So I just keep it to myself. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be single in my late thirties drinking wine and watching Netflix in the future while my friends want to go on couples retreats, spending time with their hubbies and whatnot . Idk, maybe it'll come one day. I'm not rushing it. It just kinda sucks sometimes. Guess you could call this entire post venting lol don't judge please.