what's really frustrating (BC)

Knowing now that my birth control was likely the reason I couldn't stop gaining weight and almost didn't fit into my wedding dress (and look like I have a damn gut in some of the photos), why I was having severe headaches including all day on my wedding day, why I've on and off been an emotional disaster the last year, why my periods feel like giving birth to Saran every month when they didn't used to, why I'm so tired all the damn time and why sex hurt so bad that I spent my wedding night crying from disappointment and pain. And why I've been frigid the past year thinking something was broken with me-our sex life has been horrid our whole marriage. It was the damn birth control this whole time.