Emigrated while pregnant

Hi! I'm new here, even though I've been enjoying the app for a while now. And I kind of really need some support at this moment. I'm 15 weeks pregnant, and during my pregnancy I moved from Europe to Mexico. A plan we actually decided upon before ending up pregnant. We thought it wouldn't be necessary to change our plans and stay in the Netherlands, we saw it possible to work hard for our money. Besides, his father is giving us a house, but it's not possible to live in, yet.

The move has been horribly hard on me and is kind of tearing me apart. I feel so lonely, far away from home. All the worries of a first pregnancy, and even more, because we still have to build our life here. I feel so uncomfortable, I can't be myself and I haven't felt real joy since we arrived.

At the same time, his family is very hard on me. They see me as responsible for the happiness of my husband. They blame me for not loving him, nor my baby. They say I'm selfish. That I only think of myself. It hurts so much!

He has been trying to take care of me. But he is also failing on many levels. He blames me for being miserable and for causing negativity in his life. He blames me for not being able to be happy. He blames me for reacting emotional and stressed and worried and tells me that 'hormones' are just a bad excuse! Even though he perfectly knows I used to be different before.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to loose him and I don't want to be separate. Me moving back home, would mean that we will be 9000kms apart. But at this point I don't know what's better. I'm losing all hope to be able to be happy here, which kind of suffering would be worse for my baby? Me staying here with almost no support, feeling miserable, having to force a smile on my face, trying to be strong enough to grow a baby AND to make my husband happy and feel good? Or me being so incredibly far away from my husband, probably missing him so much it will hurt?

I don't even know if it's a good idea to post this here, but I'm getting quite desperate.