No sex? :(

So my hubby and I do not want anymore kiddos. He has agreed to get a vasectomy so I don't have to go on birth control. I have horrible reactions to the hormones I them and I have a clotting disorder and can't take most of them.

He has yet to make the appointment to get this done, and hasn't bought condoms so we haven't done the deed in weeks. I feel like he just doesn't want to be with me anymore. We have been married for 13 years and been together for 19.

When I asked him about it he says things are fine, he just doesn't want another kid and doesn't want to chance it.

I feel so bad about myself already and this all is just making it worse. We are not even touching each other lately and I am so exhusted by the time my older kids go to bed that I go to sleep when they do, so we haven't really spent any time together. I just feel unwanted and alone.

Anyone else in the same boat or been through this and come out ok or better? This is our 3rd kiddo and it's been an easier kid, but the relationship is harder right now. I don't really know why, but it is.