Long distance relationship sucks *vent*

My husband an I have been married 5 years so we've been together most of the time but for the last 2 an half years we've been OTR he goes out an welds or I go out an drive, either way one or the other of us has the kids an were both lonely. So lonely! It's almost hard to get along anymore over the phone we fight alot, even when he came home for Christmas he said the house wasn't clean enough an acted like it was trashed I had tried to clean all week but my friend kept bringing her kid over that made 4 kids running hell around my place and she certainly didn't help me clean. Kinda mad at her for that. But besides our bedroom the rest of the house was pretty neat. An he still pitched a fit. So I feel like all we do is fight. Not to mention I quit my job cause the stress alone was killing me an he's pushing me to get another, I just can't find one that pays decently, (I say that because 3 kids in daycare isn't cheap an I don't wanna work just to put all my money in daycare that's pointless) it's been so rough this year an we're still a month behind on bills. I just can't catch up or catch a break. I just try to clean my best when I'm home like this, he can claim the house is a wreck but at least when I'm home the toilets and tub get scrubbed. An he don't vacuum, so yeah. But I miss him so much when he's gone. He's really my other half without him I'm incomplete, I want my sexy boy to come home. 😢😭😭 here he is after I picked him up at the airport we went to walmart... my most recent photo of him Christmas eve