I need a little advice. I was dating this man 9 months before we got engaged. If I hadn't known him for a while in high school I would agree that's too soon. Prior to dating me his high school girlfriend had become pregnant and was I believe either 36 or 38 weeks pregnant and their daughter passed due to a blood clot in the cord. She was a very beautiful baby and my heart was heavy for both of them even though until recently I hated her. He and I decided in April 2016 to start trying to have a baby. On October 12th we conceived our child. On November 11th we lost our child. It was too soon to know what gender the baby was. But giving a name and gender helped and helps me cope. My sons name is Greyson Allen McMillion. Shortly after we lost Grey our relationship quickly fell apart. I didn't want to be touched and I calmly and nicely explained to my fiancé at the time why I was acting so distant and I apologized for pushing him away I just needed time to heal at least a little. He then turned to the girl he had been cheating on me with and who he had cheated with on his girlfriend from high school. My car then broke, then I lost my job, then I lost my home and then I lost Reed. All within a month I lost it all. I have very little family and what family I have , isn't the best. I'm trying to just stay strong for my little angel and tell myself the time will come when I find the right man and have a family. But a larger part of me doesn't care about that and no longer wants to be here and struggling. They say it gets better but the good is always short lived. I'm just in a very dark place. And in need of advice