i dont even know.

i feel really awkward for even making this topic but i have been with my boyfriend for 1 year and 7 months and we have not had sex yet because of me being a virgin and scared of pregnancy and just being a worrier. (yes i know theres condoms and spermicide and yes i am on birth control but the worse of me just gets in the way) im not like a bad girlfriend because of it right? my boyfriend never pressures me into doing anything but like i am ready in a way but in the way im not is because of what i said earlier... i just im just writing this because i want to vent.. oh im 20 btw just in case anyone wonders lol.