I've Had My Fourth Miscarriage

Kendra • Find your own happiness. Don't do what others expect of you. ~Baby Dust~
This is my fourth miscarriage....What am I doing wrong? All my tests come back that I'm healthy. I'm a little overweight but not enough to cause harm. I eat right drink plenty of water take my prenatals etc. I don't understand why this keeps happening....I want a baby....I want to hold all my little losses in my arms and love them and be a mother. Why is my body torturing me? Why is God torturing me? Do I deserve this? Why do you keep creating life in me only to take it away? It's cruel. I want a baby so bad it hurts. This last one I didn't even tell my husband because I had a nagging feeling it wouldn't stick. I wasn't going to tell him until the first ultrasound... I'm so frustrated and feel like giving up. Everyone says I'm healthy but a healthy person doesn't lose four babies.... What is wrong with me?