So I'm posting this because obviously I need some comfort, maybe positive words although I know most all be negative. I'm going crazy and can't stop thinking about it until after my doctor's appointments tmrw.

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Well long story short, I had a short period of time in my life where I had a short with this guy I'll call J. I had been attracted to him for so long and finally we hit it off and he stayed a couple times at my place and I managed to say no to sex a few times. But then eventually we got closer and i gave in but we used a condom.... Like twice... Then twice after that he managed to convince me to not wear a condom but we had a long talk about it. He assured me he had 5 kids and didn't have any diseases. I told him that there's literally killer diseases out there contacted through sexual contact... And again he assured me we were best friends and he would never do such a thing. So I then agreed no condom... We had sex twice and then I stopped going to see him so now we're distant. He always has my back if I call.. But for some reason can't shake the thought that he gave me HIV. idk why to be honest. I'm a Google symptom maniac and I feel like my stomach pain and headaches recently are HIV symptoms or something... I'm going to the gastro Dr tmrw and the gyno for my annual so I figure I'll figure it all out.. But I did go to the ER about 4 days ago and they drew blood and everything and said everything was ok... And also went to an urgent clinic a month ago for urine, blood work and cervix swab and they also said I was perfectly fine.. I haven't slept with J since early September, maybe end of July.. But I still can't shake this idea.

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Does anyone know anyone who HAS the disease and doesn't mind sharing their symptoms or side effects of the disease? I'm shitting bricks and prob just overreacting but I'm desperate to know. I know it was a horrible mistake but please please tell and help with what you can and are comfortable with. I sincerely appreciate it.