How can you ever be in public ?!?

I'm 20 years old have had this male hormone issue since I was 13 , no matter waxing , shaving and did laser removal, nothing works, I haven't been able to wear my hair up since I was 12yrs old , I miss it honestly . Make up doesn't even work to xover it up, the hair grows back within 30 minutes even aftee waxing! If tried self harm over this a few years back I'm so ashamed I have to go through this, I can't even walk outside without someone pointing it out , I haven't been in a relationship since 16. I'm basically here asking if someome has the exact same thing , what have you tried that has worked to keep it gone, or atleast lightened up? I also have this issue all over my body. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of looking at my face everyday scars and all from trying so much .