Memories 💔

For some odd reason.... I had a dream about my ex from 5 years ago. I know it's just a dream. But in the dream my current bf was in it... telling me to go see my ex. That I should really talk to him. Now my ex is from Germany and after we broke up we talked still until he started seeing someone else. It hurt because he was the first man I ever loved. Well my first love. If you wanna call it that. We didn't sleep together. But just being with him ... I really liked him a lot.  And he had to go back home. So I know I had to let him go but I wanted us to always be friends. Well long story short. I tried to add him on fb and he denied my request. He won't block me. He just has it to where I can't add him as a friend on fb. Now I know I read into things to much but if he doesn't wanna speak with me. Why not just block me. I mean he blocked me on his Instagram. But not fb. I do miss him as a friend and wish we could speak at least. Then I think I'd be alright.