That Horrible Feeling 😔

Okay so where do I start..? To make a super long story somewhat short I'm going to start here...from family and friends I have been getting tore apart and down so badly since I moved from Louisiana to California and it hurts like HELL. I cried myself to sleep a number of times and I have been thru self harm suicide thoughts/attempts...although nothing to extreme because Im here and I'm stronger than ever. It was so bad and what made me feel worse is my mom didn't even notice NOT one thing I kid you not. I was faking a smile I lost myself and she didn't help me by not noticing till one summer my best friend encouraged me to tell her what I was going thru. Those feelings those thoughts have been creeping there way back into my mind; considering everything that has happened in the past few months parents divorced, numerous deaths in family,  life itself and everything thing else. The point of me sharing this with people I don't even know is to say I know my problems probably seem itty bitty compared to most but no matter how big or small your problems may seem you are being heard by someone and someone does care rather you see it or not . Someone loves you dearly and it's amazing what they will go thru for you.