I feel terrible

We have a 5 month old daughter together and at least 3 times a week I find myself wishing I didn't choose him to have a baby with.

I love my husband

I adore my child

He is not the father I thought he would be ... He keeps telling me he is trying but I think he is delusional. He says it will get better as she gets older but right now I can only see the present.

Heart = broken