Ugh !!!!!!!!

I just wanna sit here and cry and rip my damn hair out I never get to go anywhere with my hubby anymore but yet he's like I'm not keeping you here but when I ask if I can go he uses some lame ass excuse why I can't or shouldn't go. I'm sick of being in this cluttered up house I can't get rid of the shit cuz it's his brothers but he won't pick it up. And I'm stuck here all day everyday with this stupid puppy I didn't want that still isn't potty trained and it's too cold to just leave it outside. Idk what to do there's nothing I even can stand watching on Netflix I'm sick of TV I don't wanna play games cuz that's still tv coloring is freaking boring without a kid or someone to show it to. Games on my phone are boring n just wastes my battery and I've done everything I possibly can I've slept way more then what's healthy the past two days I just wanna cry.