IM SO NERVOUS FOR A RESPONSE. long read!

This is what I wrote. She has hurt me so badly and has said some nasty shit. As have I but in attack towards her as she had a go at me first. but I don't want to live my life having hate against her. 

Hey maddy - I'm sending you this message because I've been doing a lot of thinking and I really don't want to be in the hateful relationship we are in. I don't want to live my life knowing that there's always something not right with you or that we never get along and every time we speak, we fight. I think it's time for us both to grow up a little and stop the discomfort between us if your willing. I don't hate you nor do I want to. I must admit I did but I'm over that and it's silly to not get along with you anymore. There's nothing for us to hate Eachother about. There is nicole as we both get jealous of the friendships but I think we can get through that. I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused you - I'm really just done with the hate. I don't want to live my life knowing that we dont like each other. I don't want to feel weirded out if I see you down the street or something. I want us to be friends.  There's no reason why we can't be. This message is a little all over the place but you get what I'm saying. I don't want this anymore. I'm sorry. ❤️  Do I sound weak?